Last msg on last pday for Sadie Bug 4.5.21

Hello my sweet missionary

I just wanted to share this with you last night dad and I couldn’t fall asleep very well so we were talking a lot about you and Emma like we always do and I asked him what he remembered about his last day as a missionary Like his last full day in the field and he said “nothing” And even when he tried to sit and think about it he still couldn’t really remember very much of any of those experiences during the wind up because it’s not like everyone you’ve ever loved ever taught is it in one room where you get to go around it feel all the feelings and you’re busy packing and making sure your companions having a good day and doing all the things that you need to wrap things up

And that made me think about the pressure or expectation we have for how things go or how things are and some of the nerves you’re probably dealing with and emotions just generally- so I just share that with you because how today goes doesn’t define your mission or doesn’t have to be some grand summation of every experience you’ve ever had or necessarily representative of all the love you felt and all the highs/ lows- it might just be a day- just go about it without any  extra pressure on yourself for it to be something or for it not to be something just let it be what it is I know that that is more than enough- you’ve been showing up every single day of your mission Sadie Jane- whatever today is or isn’t you’ll still  show up and the light up  wherever you are

We are so proud of you and love you so much and I can’t even believe I’m so close to getting that hug